My third week of school y’all. I think im cooked for this year.

So, 7th period. It's mid. Seriously, these dudes next to me are just fooling around while im trying to do my work. It bothered me I was so close to asking the teacher if I could go outside and do my work in the hallway cuz at least it is much quieter there.

Oh they're making us do this weird mindset thing to make us better people? Girl I dont even think most of the people here wanna change, but who knows maybe this will make an everlasting impact on someone. And it's something that requires us to interact with people, and I dont like interacting with others, especially after what happened near the end of the school year. Im just gonna lay low, and hope someone doesn't try to talk to me, if someone does im gonna slither away like a snake (love my besties tho)

OH these also this meeting I have to go to later, man I dont wanna go, I wanna be in my room thinking of that one plush I wanna make. Maybe a friend of mine will go for me instead and give me a summary of it. Imagine someone that lives like 30 minutes away coming for the meeting and then it lasts like 15 minutes, girl id cry honestly. But I think it is about our prom or something, which is kinda something im looking forward to.

Peter. There he was just mumbling about something to his friends while I was tryna do my work. I dont have feelings for anyone anymore (if I ever had any, those were very confusing times) and it feels weird now considering that this has gone on for almost 4 years. Life is just idk, lifing. But I can't wrap my head around one thing. HOW did some BOY I was sitting next to during lunch in freshman year change me so much? Like if I never sat next to that guy I would not be catholic, to be honest, I'd be six feet under LOL? God was cooking and he was cooking me in the process