My parents are planning on making me a birthday party. If they do it'll be my first time having one.

They have never done a birthday party for me because I was born on December 21st, very close to Christmas. Their reasonings stem from having too many parties to celebrate or just celebrating it on the same day, despite them never doing so. Everyone else had large parties on their birthdays except me. Lots of food, guests, music, everything. All I get for my birthday is cake and a gift, which is honestly good enough for me, but I always wanted a large party, which is why they're making one for me now since I'll be turning 18 this year.

Never expected to turn 18 and still be alive, to be honest so for me this is a very big deal. I dont care about the presents, to me turning 18 means that I kept my promise to God and my younger self. But im scared cuz then I'll be a legal adult so, yay!

On my 15th they planned on doing one though, but everyone in my family got COVID except me. They still asked whether or not I wanted a big party and I said no, maybe when I turned 18.

Oh! One birthday I do remember vividly is my 16th birthday. The whole family was supposed to get together to celebrate it, but my dad got drunk, and instead of wishing me a happy birthday he just went to sleep. My mom and brothers sang it for me, I was trying everything I could to not cry because my dad wasn't there.

When I went to my room I played Pokemon Violet to get my mind off of it, I had fun for a couple of minutes until I went to heal my Pokemon at the Pokemon Center when I saw that little banner on it and had the nurse wish me a happy birthday. That just made me remember about my dad. I giggled and thought to myself, "Wow, the game wished me a happy birthday, but not my dad." Then I cried.