Today I went to mass

well, I almost didnt go today, and i felt kinda sad. My dad was acting childish, as always. He was hungry, very hungry...

my mom offered to make him an egg, my dad didn;t like that suggestion, and then she offered something else, and he got angry. Now they had to figure out who was going to take me to mass,because if i dont then i wont receive the sacrament of confirmation.

My mom took me, and let me tell you,there where no more parking spaces, every single space had been taken. We ended up parking somewhere tho lol. mass was very nice, just worship and stuff. but then it was time to receive the body and blood of christ, and my body froze.

i didn't feel worthy of receiving such a sacred thing. My mom kept telling me to go up, but I couldn't. That stupid, internal voice in me kept telling me that I didn't deserve to go up there because of my SSA, and that no matter what I was destined to go to hell...

she ended up getting on a rant on the way back home....