To you, Jackie
The letter to Jackie was kinda a rant about all the things she did to me. I wrote this in anger rather than love for her well-being. Ultimately this is what I sent to her. Just by reading it, you can tell how much pent-up anger I had for what she did.
5/22/25
You drove me to psychosis and led me to almost go through with my several suicide attempts for that man of yours. For 2 years, All you'd do is put me down over having feelings for a man and I have told you multiple times to stop yet you persisted while I was trying to save my already fragile mental state.
So you: belittled me over a crush, told me to like my friend who killed himself multiple times, basically just being a bitch to the point that I didn't even know who I even was anymore and saw myself as a freak for the crime of having a damn crush. What you did hit deep, emotionally, physically, spiritually, every aspect. I dont even know if we were even friends to begin with or if I was just competition for you to snuff out.
That comment about me “whining” added more salt to the wound. It was the very thing that made me post that horrific rant on Instagram. Everything I said on it was true to an extent, to my anger about what you did to me and Ruben of all people stopping my suicide attempt back in 2021, all over his spit getting what was supposed to be my last meal. I was mad about how you mocked me after I told you I needed more time the last time I tried talking about it. You constantly repeated it in such a mocking tone and even walked behind me once I decided that talking it through wasn't even worth it. I even told you that I wanted to talk about it later but I guess you also have a problem with running your mouth that you didn't listen.
Also that "all you do is run your mouth" comment. That's what led to this in the first place! You ran your damn mouth all for a man. You didn't even think twice before acting to even think of what the consequences would be. Weren't you saying stuff about me at the beginning of the year about how I "was trying to get in the way with my mansss" despite me being a lesbian? All I wanted was an apology, that's the whole reason why I even confronted you and asked to talk about it. But you have such a high horse you can't even do something as simple as saying “sorry.” And apparently you do know that I want one, you just don't wanna give me one. Don't get me started with you apparently having so many good things to say about me after you got sent to the office for what I posted on Instagram. That lady at the damn office had the nerve to tell me that you said that while I was having a full on mental breakdown and proceeded to tell me that I had no reason to be angry! Fuck off with that bullshit. Did you even care about my wellbeing in the first place or are you just putting on a facade? I'd rather have you hate my guts than that fake ass shit. Now, I can't even function properly, I'm likely gonna be needing years of therapy.
Let me put this straightforwardly since you have such a victim complex. You are a conniving little bitch who always runs her mouth and likes to manipulate and bully people to get what she wants. You are among the worst in terms of how much destruction you have caused in my life. Do you even feel an ounce of regret or can you physically not imagine yourself in the wrong? How do you do this and the next second act like a damn saint?
You are despicable.
Note: She was the first one to read her letter.
